Friends - new and old

It wasn't a long time ago that I believed in groups and friend circles. Yes, I believed that a friendship was more a group thing than a relationship between two people. Of course, a friend was important to me - but i always seemed to look at the friend - not as an individual, but as part of my extensive group. This was in my early teens. Even unto my early 20s. Then, these groups that i was part of started to break and drift apart. I tried to keep them together - but only in my head did i manage the feat. People told me it's about individuals - I wouldn't listen. To me, it was still about a network of people.

Anyway, with time I learned. And today, a wiser me is all set to re-establish contacts with old friends and new - this time on an individual basis.
And as I set out to do so, I realise, things change with time more than one believes... I ask myself, why did i lose touch with so many of my friends? were they really friends? well, they were important at one ppoint in time, but then... what really happened? Some drifted apart and lost themselves in a world of their own. Others were left out due to sheer negligence of communication. And still others, dropped on purpose.

So why do I want to re-establish networking?

Simple! To see how far I have come; how different I am now to the 'I' that was; to see if there are hints of the old me in the present me. So, it is all about ME eventually.

I need to know what my friends perceive me as. i need to know how close I really am to their perception. And I need to know how close they are to what I had perceived them to be. I want to know the abstaction of CHANGE in a concrete measurable way.
Huh! what a revelation, this!!! even to myself!

strange, isn't it. this blog seems to be becoming more of my friend. It may not say anything yet, but it sure listens ;)and reveals...