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Tuesday, 8 May 2007

Friends - new and old

It wasn't a long time ago that I believed in groups and friend circles. Yes, I believed that a friendship was more a group thing than a relationship between two people. Of course, a friend was important to me - but i always seemed to look at the friend - not as an individual, but as part of my extensive group. This was in my early teens. Even unto my early 20s. Then, these groups that i was part of started to break and drift apart. I tried to keep them together - but only in my head did i manage the feat. People told me it's about individuals - I wouldn't listen. To me, it was still about a network of people.

Anyway, with time I learned. And today, a wiser me is all set to re-establish contacts with old friends and new - this time on an individual basis.
And as I set out to do so, I realise, things change with time more than one believes... I ask myself, why did i lose touch with so many of my friends? were they really friends? well, they were important at one ppoint in time, but then... what really happened? Some drifted apart and lost themselves in a world of their own. Others were left out due to sheer negligence of communication. And still others, dropped on purpose.

So why do I want to re-establish networking?

Simple! To see how far I have come; how different I am now to the 'I' that was; to see if there are hints of the old me in the present me. So, it is all about ME eventually.

I need to know what my friends perceive me as. i need to know how close I really am to their perception. And I need to know how close they are to what I had perceived them to be. I want to know the abstaction of CHANGE in a concrete measurable way.
Huh! what a revelation, this!!! even to myself!

strange, isn't it. this blog seems to be becoming more of my friend. It may not say anything yet, but it sure listens ;)and reveals...

Sunday, 29 April 2007

Who am I?

I was just sitting in my living room and wondering what really matters to me. My husband, kids, select individuals of my family and friends. Of course. But what is it that makes some of these people more different and more 'matterable' than others? And I didn't have to wait too long for the answer to flash in my head. What makes them matter so much to me is my own perception of them and theirs of me...
No one knows anyone in completeness, as one whole. No one can understand all the facets of another's personality. Even self does not know the complete self! 'Who am I?' - it seems like an easy to answer question, but it isn't. 'I' am not just my role in a relationship. Nor am I my profession. My characteristics are mine, they make me me, but they are not the whole 'I'. The perceptions of me in the minds of others is not 'I' again! Then who am I? It's a question that religious preachers ask, that sages and anyone who is spiritually inclined -for that matter - seek an answer to. But then, if one were to eventually find the answer, what would one really say? 'Ah! So I AM'- perhaps - that could be potentially a complete me?!? Just me - 'I' in the present. 'I' as a part of the past... may be, may be not! Or, I could be a part of the Divine, set upon in my present, with the roles to play, perceptions to live upto and deal with, a catalyst of certain change, and - at the same time - that 'I' who must learn her lessons before being a complete 'whole' and getting back to the Divine again.
Well, until I learn who I am - I'm going to sign off for now as just plain, simple, fun-loving Aradhna ;)

Tuesday, 20 March 2007

So, it's been a few days and I guess these things (blogs)take time to set on a roll. Hopefully, this blog may take some sort of direction...
Be it on mothering matters in Switzerland, or traveling to the pristine locations within and around the country, to creative writing or to something else... sort of a forum - resourceful, may be - just something positive.

Thursday, 15 March 2007

My first 'blog' thought

It seems like just yesterday...
I was young, free and single! Today, six years down the line, I still feel young and free. And what I enjoy most is the fact that my solitary happy status has turned into a status of pride and joy as I turned wife and mother, creating a home away from home :)

Oh yes, and along commenced my career - it tugged at my sense of 'being' and I became a juggler of roles and responsibilities. Let's say, I metamorphosed into a chaos-manager - in a country where integration means more than just learning the language!

Yes, a challenging yet positively exciting experience.

Along the way, I decided to take a shot at creating my own little blog. Wondering if there are others out there who'd want to share experiences of life in foreign lands.

I wonder as I key in my thoughts whether this blog will make an interesting read or have a certain focus to draw a certain kind of audience - and in some way point towards the wonders of life and make change happen...